My wife taken (parts 1 and 2) hypno, nc? I do like this newsgroup which I've followed for some time (Eli did such a good job) and now I'm retired I've decided to write about something which happened years ago. A true story from the sixties when my wife and I were newly weds. Some of the details may not be correct because it happened so long ago and because both my wife and I were hypnotised. In fact I still wonder how much I can trust my memories. Sometimes it feels as if there's a memory just below the surface that I can't quite reach and I wonder if this is a sign of anything. Hypnotism does strange and weired to ones memory, or so it seems to me. It's as if you can remember but can't remember at the same time and I know that doesn't make sense but there it is. I found it really difficult was conveying how it felt to be hypnotised and I don't think I've done it that well. It's a weird thing. Actually, doing things under hypnosis doesn't feel strange - at least it didn't at the time. It fact it feels as if what your doing is the right and proper thing to do. And as you will read I watched my wife behaving towards another man thinking he was me - that's a strange feeling as well. Afterwards the events I'm going to tell you about, I had a lot of guilt (and even fear to start with) and to this day my wife and I have never really talked about it. But we're still together forty years on and most of the guilt has faded over the years. There are still things I don't understand, like why I get so aroused when I think about what happened and there are some details I have only remembered as I started writing this story. Anyway, it was a long time ago and if I worried about the events for many years afterwards and denied they ever happened, well, I don't any more. Writing this down has been a cathartic experience and even now I find the events strangely erotic. Poor memory, artistic license and a need to preserve anonymity have combined to demand a few subtle changes, but let me start at the beginning. Growing up in Scotland in the 50's I thought I could do anything. The world was my oyster as they say. I don't remember any of the austerity other people mention when they talk about those post war times in England. Our table was never empty. I was always a rather frail child and hated sports, but more than that, I knew that one day the family estate and wealth would be mine. I was sent to a famous boarding school and was duly accepted into Cambridge. However, before I left father took me into his study and dealt me quite a blow. He told me the family money was disappearing fast. He was doing what he could, but with the estate costing such a lot to maintain and some shareholdings now nearly worthless I needed to plan my life on the basis that I would have to work for my living. "Luckily your clever enough Des," he said, (he clearly had read my school reports after all), "so I'm not going to worry about you I know going to do well. But I wanted you to know and trust your old enough to keep family business a secret." It was a bitter blow and dashed my plans to party my university years away. Suddenly I worried about the furure and I didn't enjoy university as I otherwise might. Instead I studied hard. But I did well and afterwards got a job in the city (father pulled few strings). This was the swinging sixties and life in London was clourfull and fun. The allowance I received from father was a pittance but the family name helped. I didn't realy enjoy parties and came to realise I wasn't the social animal I wanted to be. I met my friends individually rather than is groups or as a crowd. And I never saw much of the sexual liberation they talk so much about now, although I did see the Beatles, the Rolling Stones, and Bob Dylan all in the same year Joan was the department boss's secretary and had been there a few months before I arrived. She was 18 at the time and turned more male heads than Jackie Stewart crossing the winning line at Brands Hatch. I guess every male in the department had asked her out but most got turned down. This may have been the swinging sixties but Joan was certainly not leading the way and burning her bra! Eventually I also asked her out and to my surprise she accepted. And to cut a long story short we fell in love and were married 18 months later. I got a lot of ribbing at work. Some guys were so jealous they claimed she only married me for my name and money but I knew this was not the case. Joan was a virgin when we married and we both found sex difficult. Not the liberating experience the underground press kept going on about and which I had secretly hoped for. Joan thought lust and physical desire was a bad thing and had difficulty relaxing although she was keen enough to start with. And whilst not a virgin I wasn't exactly experienced. I was enjoying my work and was progressing up the ladder. Of course, after we were married Joan handed in her notice so she could set up our home. But her boss, BJ, pursuaded her to stay on for three months and see a special project through to completion. There were a lot of new ideas coming out of America and BJ was arranging a special conference for the company's 40 or so up-and-coming managers like me. As BJ's secretary, Joan was also coming to the conference which meant she would be the only female employee there. This would never normally have been allowed but given that I was going to be there it was considered to be acceptable. Mind you, it still provoked a lot of ribbing and crude references, but I guess the guys were just jealous. BJ had a bit of a reputation. About 35, he was a bachelor and didn't have many friends at work apart from his deputy Vic. Some women found him attractive while others found him creepy. He had a large wolf-hound called Fred and if he came to work by car (which he sometimes did) then he would bring Fred to guard the car and would take him for a walk at lunch. He was considered rather ruthless when it came to work but was often given difficult projects to manage which benefited from this approach. The conference was in a country hotel in the Home Counties and each evening, after a hard day's work, we were expected to dress formally for dinner. This was followed by some entertainment arranged by BJ's side-kick Vic. There was skiffle band and a comedian on Monday and Tuesday which, which were pretty dire. On Wednesday I was encouraged to take Joan out to the cinema and the next day I heard that the evenings entertainment had been a stripper. And on Thursday evening there was a hypnotist which is where this story really begins. It was hilariously to start with. The hypnotist picked people from the audience and soon had them pretending to be farm animals and the like. Dr Hip (yes, believe it or not that was what he called himself) had a row of chairs to one side of the stage and an area screened off from the audience. He would start to hypnotise people in the chairs and then take them behind the curtain for a few minutes. Often he would leave the subject behind the screen while he explained some detail to the audience. I think every one of the audience must have sat on one of his chairs that evening although only about ? where asked to go behind the screen. The funny thing is that although I know I went behind the screen I can't remember what happened there. As the evening wore on things got naughtier and more riskay. I remember pretending I was a dog trying to fuck a chair while the audience rolled in the isles with laughter. At the time I didn't think I was hypnotised at all. In fact I was certain of it. I was just going along with the fun. But in the subsequent weeks I thought about it a lot and decided I must have been hypnotised otherwise I would not have allowed what happened. Things got raunchier and Dr Hip kept on getting Joan up on stage. He started by making her think she was an Egyptian dance - weaving her hands and body in a slow sensual rhythm. She was wearing a long evening dress with a slit from her waist down so you occasional got a flash of thighs. The top was low but not indecently by todays standards and anyway she covered herself with a Paisley shawl. Dr Hip suggested she removed it and when she did the whole room murmered it's approval. Now everyone could clearly see her beautiful figure and thrusting breasts - tightly moulded by the dress. Then Dr Hip put Joan was in trance and told her he was a sex specialist and started asking about her sex life. "Does your husband satisfy your sexual needs?" Bloody hell, I thought, that's pushing it a bit but Joan seemed to stumble and unable to answer. "OK then" Dr Hip continued, "Do you satisfy your husbands needs?" Joan started to get upset and embarressed. "I want to but?." Her voice faded away. He asked what she meant and she blurted out, "Des wants me to do things but I can't. I want to please him but I don't know how. What should I do?" I don't think Dr Hip had expected this. All the other guys sat there wondering what he would do next. I was stunned. I knew Joan was anxious about sex - but this! I was stunned because what she was saying was true. As he got more details out of her I just wanted to die but felt powerless to do anything in a roomful of my colleagues. I'll have to pretend it was all a put on and she made it up, I decided. "You came to me so you want my help? Is that right my dear?" Dr Hip was saying "Oh, yes please Dr." "Well then my dear come with me." And he led her behind the screen. He motioned to the audience to stay quiet and when they returned a few moments later Joan seemed diffeent somwhow. She was clearly oblivious to the audience but still seemed embarressed. "You look embarressed, my dear" the Dr comented but Joan just loked at the floor. "You feel arroused, don't you?" Joan just nodded her head. "That's good. It means we can start. Let's start by you showing me how you might undress for your husband. Pretend your undressing and I'll be able to give you some pointers." So Joan started undressing, or miming the process. Although it was only miming the way she rolled her stocking down her thighs caused a great stir in the audience. The next few minutes passed as Joan continued to undress then dress in her nightie. Dr Hip kept on encouraging her to feel sexual and arroused. He told the audience that he had special words which would make her more aroused. Next he asked for some volunteers. Most of the guys stood up en-mass and he chose four or five who he had already hypnotised. Soon they were under again and he made them think they where being given a blowjob by a beautiful women. It was both funny and erotic seeing these men standing there moaning with delight. He told them that whenever they heard his voice it would sound like a sexy female voice and they would get more aroused. Some seemed unsteady on their feet and one guy even had a wet patch appear on his trousers after which Dr Hip told them not to reach orgasm. (The guy who came in his pants never lived it down.) He then asked Joan to kneel down before him which she did. He held an empty beer bottle in front of her mouth and told her to pretend it was her husbands cock and suck it. He then proceeded to give her advice and encouragement. He peppered his conversation with instruction to feel randy. And Joan responded. She was licking the end of the bottle with so much passion my cock was rock hard in my pants. When he bored of that Dr Hip brought the guys forward in turn and had them take his place using two of their fingers to imitate an erection instead of the bottle. So Joan knelt in front of the guys, her face inches from there groins and sucked their fingers. I knew Joan and the men were hypnotised and trusted Mr Hip to keep things decent but some of the all-male audience was softly chanting, "Take your clothes off, take your clothes off" and my cock was hard in my pants. I had never seen her look so sexy and willing. When it was Vic's turn to have his fingers sucked, (because he was also in the line up) he started caressing Joan's head and neck. When Dr Hip's back was turned he took his fingers out of her mouth and started feeling her breast and pushing his fingers down inside her low dress. All the audience saw Joan gasp and arch her breasts to his finger. Dr hip saw the audiances reraction and turned round but by then Vic had his fingers back in Joan's mouth. I think Vic said something to Dr Hip which afterwards made me think he wasn't realy hypnotised at all - he was after all the person who had arranged this entertainment. Anyway, the Dr asked him to lie on the floor with a bottle sticking up from between his legs. He told Joan to kneel in front of him and suck his cock (the bottle) and she obeyed. It was incredibly pornographic but so sexy. From where I was sitting I could see her heavy breasts rocking in the confines of her low dress as she lowered her lips over the bottle between Vic's thighs. I was obvious his cock was hard. Dr Hip was incouraging her and put his hands on her hips getting her to rock backwards and forwards. Then he positioned himself behind her and simulated fucking her from behind. Throughout all this he continued to tell her how sexy she was feeling and how good she felt by "pleasing" her husband. That was the shows climax (excuse the pun) and as they left all the guys glanced at me trying to hide their errections. Vic must have told Dr Hip Joan's husband was in the audience because he sought me out for a chat. He wanted to make sure I was not offended and although I was rather shocked I did think it helpful to say anything. He seemed a nice guy and when I left everyone else had gone apart from Joan who was waiting for me. Joan and I hardly spoke the next day - as if we were both embarressed. That evening we were due to go out at 6.30, but as the bus arrived BJ called and asked her to stay behind as they still had some work to finish and needed her secretarial skill - this was way before computers. She apologised to me and hurried off. For some reason I didn't want to go out alone - even through the rest of the guys where un-partnered. I sneaked up to our room and ordered a meal in my room pretending I was ill. Later I went to see if Joan was working at her typewriter and saw her in the dining room. She was with BJ and Vic and they were just leaving. I ducked out of sight and heard Joan complaining. "Don't you think it's too late to work. I've had a bit to much to drink" She was slurring her vowels somewhat. "OK, but the last thing we've got to do is to talk about what happened last night. We had better go upstairs to the lounge." "What about last night?" Joan suddenly sounded anxious. "We'll talk about it upstairs" I heard them climbing the stairs. The lounge was probably the private suite overlooking the lake that the senior managers had rented for relaxation. I was suddenly curious and wanted to know what BJ wanted to say. So I followed them, eased out the fire escape and crept round the balcony to the French windows of the lounge which were slightly ajar in the hot summer's night. There was a small window at head hight and I found I had a pretty clear view. My heart was pounding as I watched and wondered whatbthe hell I was doing spying on my wife and boss. The BJ and Vic where sitting on chairs facing Joan who stood swaying slightly as if drunk. She looked rather anxious and unsure what was happening. She looked very beautiful in the pale yellow summer dress she was wearing with a cardigan over the top. "Did you know I was planning on promoting Max?" BJ asked. Joan was startled, " Hey, No, but I'm sure he'll be pleased." "Mmmm?.You had better call me "Sir" for the moment if that's OK. And did you know I may have to sack him for what happened last night?" "No.." Joan's hands flew to her mouth aghast. "No sir, You can't sack him. What happened last night?" "Don't you remember your behaviour after dinner." "It was only harmless fun." Joan pleaded "Well we're here to investigate what happened and if you satisfy us then I have the authority to let the matter rest. Is that all right?" "Oh Yes. But you can't sack him ?. please." "Must I remind you to call me "Sir?" BJ said sternly "Sorry sir, but you can't sack him, sir." "Well we'll see. That's what I want to investigate. I want to go through what happened when you went on to the stage and we'll take it from there. Are you going to co-operate?" "Yes sir, of course, what can I do?" "Well, last night you started by dancing on the stage, didn't you?" "Yes I think so sir." Joan was very hesitant. "Dr Hip asked me to." "Show us" Vic interrupted, "Show us how you dance." "What here." Joan sounded surprised. "Yea, you danced in from of everyone last night, so show us again now." Slowly and hesitantly Joan started dancing to herself, swaying to an unheard rhythm. "I danced like this." She said. "And then Dr Hip said the words 'Blue Pyjamas' didn't he?" This was BJ again. "Yes sir" she paused, "can I stop now?" "No, not yet. I want you to dance slowly and sensually like last night. Imagine you're wearing Blue pyjamas." "Don't say that sir." "Say what." "Blue Pyjamas." "Why not?" "Oh, it makes me feel funny and hot. Can I stop dancing now?" "No, you're not dancing properly. I want to do this properly. And as your hot you had better take your cardigan off so we can see your blue pyjamas. You weren't wearing that last night." Joan didn't know what to do. She looked confused as she swayed gently in front of her audience. Then looking resigned she slowly undid the buttons and slipped the cardigan off her shoulder. It was then that the two men realised just how sexy her little summer dress was. "Wow!" someone said. I know it was a long time ago and fashions change but let me try and describe her dress. It was in a pale yellow colour whichclung in just the right places and in the gloom of the room, seemed to emphasis the thrusting of her breasts, the flatness of her thin waist, and flaring of her hips. It was backless with the cotton coming round under her arms, over her breasts and then fastening behind her back. There was a deep V at the front showing her cleavage and some internal structure which acted like a bra to contain and hold her firm breasts. Finally it was short. Probably not as short as the latest craze of mini-skirts but certainly above the knees. Somehow I knew that the words "Blue Pyjamas" where the words Dr Hip had used the previous night when he wanted people to feel arroused. Hearing the words again was clearly having it's effect on Joan but it was also effecting me. I felt my cock getting hard and soon I had a raging boner. Inside the room Joan was still dancing in front of BJ and Vic except now she looked hot and flustered and was gasping and pleading with BJ. "Oh, please can I stop now, sir?" "No, you're not dancing properly. (He sounded exasperated) Do it like you did last night. You must let yourself go and relax, or we'll be here all night. That's it, raise your hands in the air and caress yourself. Remember your blue pyjamas?" Joan obeyed. "Did you feel all hot and sexy last night Joan?" "He made me." "And you feel hot and sexy now, don't you?" "Yes" It was no more than a whisper. It felt as if the arousal and tension in the room was pouring out of the open window and over me. I was rubbing myself through my trousers. I was so hard it hurt. BJ was moving on. "Tell me my dear, what did you do next. Was it learning how to suck a guys cock or how to strip." Joan didn't know what to say. "Come on, speak up but don't stop dancing yet" This was an interruption from Vic. "Learning to undress, sir. But it was only a game" "And that's all were going to do now. I want you to play that game again - for us. So show us what you learnt." "Sir." "Just do it. Show us how you undress" BJ demanded and after a pause Joan started slowly miming the process of removing her dress. Vic interrupted again. "No. When you did this last night, did it feel real to you, as if you really where taking your clothes off?" "Yes sir, but it was different then." "Whether you were or weren't, the guy's we spoke to seemed to think you really took your clothes off and if that's what it felt like yesterday, that's what your going to do for us now. Do you understand blue pyjamas." "Please don't say that." She whispered meekly as she stood there looking beautiful, confused and lost, staring from BJ to Vic. She was flushed and her breathing was ragged - punctuated with gasps and moans. She stood there not knowing what to do. Vic got up and turned her sideways so her back was towards me. "You feel all sexy don't you" "Yes, I'm sorry I can't help it." "Do you want Des to get the sack?" "Oh no, no, please no." "Then imagine your blue pyjamas and show us how you took your dress off last night.. Here, I'll start you off." And he undid the two buttons in the small of her back. Joan gasped and flinched as the first one popped but Vic wasn't finished. His hands went to her neck and swiftly undid the clasp which kept the whole dress up. Joan's hands clasped at her breasts to stop the material falling off and Vic turned her round again so she was facing her two man audience again. "Now carry on show us what you learnt yesterday." Joan looked close to tears but she sniffed them back and slowly started to dance again - gently moving her body from side to side. She lowered the dress exposing more and more of her breasts. I could see her internal struggle, confussed and arroused, wondering what to do. Then she lowered the dress some more and both her breasts bounced free. Jesus, she looked hot. Here was my wife exposing herself to my boss and a collegue. BJ was urging her to "image your blue pyjamas and let go" and she seemed to be obeying him as she wiped a tear away and slowly let the dress fall over her buttocks to the floor. She was dancing in front of these two guys wearing nothing but her white knickers which where tight round her firm buttocks and hugged her venus mound. Her breasts slightly larger than usual as if she was arroused and the sensual way she danced seemed to confirm this. I had never seen my wife look so sexy. She danced like this for a moment and seemed to close her eyes for a while - untill BJ spoke up again. "That's beautiful, but now your knickers please." Joan's eyes opened wide and she pleaded silently for a moment, biting her lower lip. Then giving up any protest she started gently easing the waistband over her buttocks. Slowly she lowered them down her thighs. They fell the last bit as she stepped out of them and continued her dancing - now completely naked. Even I had never seen my wife completely naked in full light before but I loved the feel of her body and watching her made me want to hold her and feel her all over. I wanted to open her slender thighs and thrust my cock inside her - but of course all I could do was feel myself. I didn't dare reveal myself. BJ was talking again. "If I heard correctly, the next thing you did was learn to suck a guy's cock is that right?" "Yes, but it was only a bit of fun." "Well that's all we're going to do here, have a bit of fun, as you show us what you did. Now on your knees please." BJ had taken her by the arm and showed her where to kneel. The sight of of my naked wife being made to kneel in front of this man was both humiliating and errotic. She looked up at him, her firm breasts bouncing gently. He thrust two fingers in her mouth telling her to suck him. But Vic had other ideas. He quickly removed his trousers and lay on the floor holding his hands over his pants where his errect penis bulged. He stuck two fingers in the air imitating his errection. "Come on over here and let yourself go." He ordered. Joan had no energy to argue. BJ virtualy forced her to go on all fours over Vic and it looked as if it was taking all her energy just kneel there, her face over his groin. "Now show us your passion." BJ instructed Joan as she lowered her head and kissed Vic's upright fingers. "That's right, now let his cock slide deep into your mouth." Joan moved her lips to the tip of his fingers and lowered her mouth until she seemed to gag and pulled away again. BJ was kneeling beside her. "Now," he said, "don't just kiss his cock, go down below his knees and kiss your way slowly up," and he pushed her head down to kiss his knees. She moved down to his calf and started kissing them, slowly moving up his legs again. "That's it, let yourself go. Be passionate. Your so turned on you can hardly control yourself." God, I remember how she looked - naked on all fours. She was nearly square on to my window and I could see her heavy breasts hanging down and her round rump BJ was holding her thin waist and caressing her back, running his hand from the small of her back over her round buttocks. He slid his hand down her thighs just missing her exposed pussy. Then he slid his hand between her knees and parted them. "You need to brace yourself and keep your balance." He told her by way of explanation. She lifted herself to say something but he pushed her head back down. "Don't talk, concentrate on the job in hand. Maybe you're not feeling sexy enough so think blue pyjamas" and he continued to repeat the mantra, "blue pyjamas, blue pyjamas" over and over again. He slid a hand beneath to her hanging breasts and cupped one, squeezing and caressing it. Joan has very sensitive breasts and immediately she started moaning loudly and the movement of her head between Vic's knees became more passionate. Then Vic who still had his hands over his groin slipped his errect cock out of the leg of his knickers which stood there proudly and nakedly erect. He was bigger than me, I noted, but I've always considered my penis to be on the small side of average. Joan was clearly unaware of this Vic's nakedness as she continued kissing her way up his thighs. "Jesus" I thought and I also took my cock out and started to slowly pump it. BJ still giving her instructions but now he to was removing his trousers - and pants. As he turned round I saw he had one of the largest cock I had ever seen - long and thick. I was awed and felt humiliated. It waved about as he moved, it's large bubous head looking obscenly menecing. He stood straddling Joan's kneeling body and bent to caress her breast. I think he was pinching her nipples because every now and again her twitched and let out a deep "Ooh." She seemed oblivious the the fact that both Vic and BJ now had there errect cock out. Vic had his hand on Joan's head guiding her and she can only have been inches away when she realised his fingers had been replaced by his cock. I heard her moan saying "No, no" and there was a brief struggle as she tried to pull away but BJ bent to squeeze heavy breasts and Vic held her head firmly against his hardness. "That's right, kiss it." He demanded. It seemed Joan had no resistance left and let her lips rise up the length of his cock kissing and licking it . BJ with his massive, flapping errection was fondling Joan's breasts and running his hand over her waist and rump. "That's right," Vic said, "now take me into your mouth." "N?.mmmm" Joan's futile protest gave way as Vic pushed Joan's lips over his cock. "Let yourself go. Relax." BJ instructed and holding her by the waist he started rocking her backwards and forwards so her lips to rise up and down Vic's cock. Joan slipped his cock out of her mouth and started to pump him by hand but this was not to Vic's pleasure. "Don't use your hands." He demanded. Then BJ who was now positioned behind her moved in closer and wiped the tip of his cock up the slash of her sex. "Use you mouth." He ordered and Joan nodded her acceptance. At the same time she waved a hand behind her to move BJ's cock away from her cunt. But BJ pushed her hand away telling her to suck Vic's cock and continued rocking her backwards and forwards except now he had the tip of his fat cock pressed against her sex. This continued for a few moments and then BJ seemed to get a firmer hold on her waist. "Ohhh??pleeeeeesseeee," she gasped. Then loudly in urgent desperation, "No. stop your going inside me." As if BJ's thrusts where a mistake or accident. "Nooooo.. Agh?.. You're pushing inside me, please." BJ was continuing with his rhythmic thrusts and I could see his fat bloated member forcing her open. He pushed her legs further apart and gripping her waist pulled her bodily on to his hard erection. "Oh my God, Ah?. Your big, your big. Ohhhhhhh.."her moaning faded as I saw him sinking into her depth. She had given up trying to suck Vic and seemed to have collapsed with her mouth over his cock as BJ pushed his member all the way home. Then he started slow deep thrusts and Joan just groaned each time he thrust back into her depth. God how he fucked her, slowly building up speed until he was slaming into her and she was shouting things like "Oh my God". Vic's cock erupted into her face and he pushed her back down onto his cock to swallow his cum but BJ continued pounding into her untill he too came and nearly collapsed on top of her. It took a few minuted for them all to recover. BJ and Vic were the first on their feet and I watched as the two of them dressed. I had cum over the wall and hoped no-one had heard my groan which I had tried to stop. BJ and Vic where talking in low voices and Vic looked over to my window and I ducked down. Then, I heard BJ calling. "Des" he called, "You can come out now Des," and he calmly walked through the French windows onto the the balcony and smiled at me. I was stunned. I wanted to die I was so embarressed. I had nowhere to hide. What could I do? "We've taught her a few tricks for you," he said as he led me back into the room. "but don't hesitant to talk to us again if you want us to teach her anything else. Come on Vic." And with that they both left the room. I immediately went to help my wife get up and dressed but I didn't know what to say to her. What would she think. I mean, by not rescueing her would she think I had arranged it, or what? We hurried to our room where Joan locked herself in the bath for an hour. As we climbed into bed Joan was nervous. "I'm sorry Des." She said. "So am I." I replied, "but lets not talk about it." She hugged me as if to say thanks and we drifted off to sleep. Well, actually I lay awake for hours before I could get to sleepand in the morning she was up really early - before I woke. Slowly, over the next few days things between us went back to normal, but we never talked about that evening although I often thought about it and wondered what I should have done. Joan never went back into the office and I got my promotion, although I had no idea what part BJ played in it. Vic was asked to transfer to the Manchester office and as the weeks went on I relaxed thinking that at least what had happened was in the past and couldn't happen again - but I was wrong. This second part of this story happened about six months later and I was hoping for another promotion. There was a promotion board who met every six months to decide who should be promoted. The ironing board as it was bizarrely known would invite a range of people in to help their deliberations depending on which level or area they were considering. You never knew who the board would invited alone but there was often fierce inter-departmental rivalry and gossip quickly spread. It's an old fashioned system by today's standards but it worked back then. People didn't move from company to company so much. Vacancies might be left unfilled for six months if the vacancy occurred right after the board had just met. And if they really wanted to promote someone they would, regardless of the lack of any vacancies that might be available. For graduates such as me who where assumed to be on a fast track to senior management and the board room it was assumed that you would be promoted at least once a year and possibly twice. Failure to achieve this would get everyone talking and would be an indication for you to moderate your ambitions or change company. All in all, the half-yearly meetings were a big deal for many ambitious guys and cause a deal of anxiety. Who you knew on the board and which managers they invited along to their discussions created endless chatter and subterfuge as the hopefuls tried to get themselves noticed in a positive light. About two weeks before the board was due to meet I got a phone call from BJ. "Come to a dinner party on Saturday," he instructed, "I'm trying to sweet talk a big customer. I've cleared it with Mr Garham (my immediate boss) and it could be good for you seeing how the promotion board is meeting next week. Is that OK? So I'll see you and your wife at my place - say 7.30. I look forward to it. OK." He hardly paused or let me get a word in. " I must rush, Mr Garham will give you my address. Bye." My boss confirmed he had been contacted by BJ and gave me his address. He also confided that BJ had been asked along to the Ironing Board discussions. I knew Joan wasn't going over the moon about going to BJ's house given the events the last time she saw BJ, but she knew how the company operated. The invitation was really an order and Joan knew it. I had no choice if I was ambitious. And so it was that on Saturday Joan and I made our way to BJ's. Joan wore a long evening dress with a high collar and long sleeves that left little flesh exposed. I just wore my normal dinner suit. I heard the dog bark when we rang the doorbell and BJ opened the door looking very pleased with himself. Fred, his wolfhound, barked from BJ's side until silenced with a flick of his finger. My heart sank when he showed us into the sitting room because there, standing by the window was Dr Hip the hypnotist. I wondered what the hell was going on but before I could say anything he got up to speak to us. BJ fixed us a drink and we started chatting. I realise Dr Hip was actually a very nice man. BJ came back and said that his customer had unfortunately cancelled but he had invited a couple of friends over so the evening wouldn't be wasted. BJ wanted to show me his new car in the garage and nodded something to Dr Hip. When we came back Joan was sitting quietly in a chair while Dr Hip looked out of the window. Something was wrong between BJ and Dr Hip who had an angry but whispered discussion in the corner. They reached some agreement and BJ handed the hypnotist a wad of notes. Dr Hip pocketed the money and came over to me. I'm sure he hypnotised me again. He must have done something when he did his stage act six months previously to make us both go under again so easily. I forget what he said to me. Except he last bit when he said that in the morning I would wake up and would never allow anyone to hypnotise me again. Then he went and had a short conversation with Joan and I watched as he put her in a trance and after some instructions woke her up again. After that he picked up his coat and left. Even now I remember these events through a dreamy fog. But what happened afterwards I remember with clear and intimate clarity. BJ returned and went over and stood in front of Joan's chair. He seemed a bit hesitant - unsure of himself. "Do you know who I am?" He asked. Joan looked up at him strangely. "Yes, of course I do." "Well who am I then?" Joan twisted to look at him closely. "You're my husband. Des. Are you OK? You seem different tonight. You're not ill are you?" She stood up to feel his brow. I felt dizzy at this and had to close my eyes for a moment. Here was my wife, Joan, talking to BJ as if he was me. I was sitting on an upright chair on the far side of the room but I was in clear view of them both. But it was as if I wasn't there as far as Joan was concerned. I sat there wondering what was going on. Dr Hip had told me to stay sitting until BJ told me what to do and it seemed sensible advice really. BJ didn't want his head moped. He seemed more confident now. Determined to get his way. He wanted to take Joan in his arms but she pushed his hands away. "Not here, Des. Not when we're expecting guests any moment." Bloody hell, I realised Joan thought she was at home, in our own house. BJ stepped forward and pulled Joan back toward him. "I want a kiss." He demanded. "Oh Des." She sounded like an exasperated child but relented and relaxed in BJ arms. BJ bent to kiss her. Long and slow and deep. Her hand grabbed his head, which is a gesture I recognised, and I knew she was really turned on. She broke away, "No Des, we've got visitors coming. Let's wait until tonight." "Your feeling randy aren't you?" "Oh, can you tell? I think it's because your Dr friend told me you wanted to teach me about sex tonight. But you shouldn't be talking about our sex life to anyone - not even a Doctor." "But you're feeling all sexy?" "I know I am. I wish we didn't have guests coming." "Do you know what I'm going to teach you tonight." Asked BJ. "No, is it a game?" "No. I'm going to teach you how to make love to a man properly - and you can start by kneeling down - now please." Joan looked completely startled then totally deflated as she asked in a whisper; "Don't I do it right?" "No, but I'm gonna teach you. Kneel down - now." Joan was to startled to think and BJ held her elbows and forced her to kneel. He stepped forward so his groin was inches from her face. "Kiss me." He demanded. "Des! You know I don't that." She said admonishingly. "Well you will tonight. Now kiss me." Joan looked furtively looked round the room before looking back up to his face. Then she dipped her head and touched her lips to BJ groin. She pressed forward to kiss him then sprang back. "You're hard." She whispered "I know. Now kiss me." Looking rather uncertain she again pressed her lips to Des's groin. "That's it, carry on until I say." He demanded. Joan had always refused me oral sex and now here she was kissing BJ's cock through his trousers. Of course Joan thought she was kissing me but I was amazed how easily he had made her do it. I wondered if I should do anything because I could see Joan was getting turned on. I knew Joan had been hypnotised and wondered if BJ was as well. I wanted to rescue Joan and show them they were making a mistake - but I couldn't. Dr Hip had impressed on me the dangers of interrupting people when they were under hypnosis. So I did nothing except watch and notice how sexy Joan looked on her knees BJ undid his zip. Joan hesitated, wondering what to do as BJ flicked his semi-hard cock out. Nooo! I screamed inside me. I don't know who was more shocked Joan or myself. I had seen BJ's cock six months before and knew how long and fat it was - a real monster. Joan recoiled and tried to stand up but BJ forced her back to the floor and told her to kiss him. She refused again saying she did not do that! BJ drew something from his pocket. It was a pair of wrist restraints. He fastened one round Joan's wrist and it was only when he grabbed her second wrist that she realised what he was doing. She struggled and they fell on the floor, Joan shouting with alarm as BJ pinned her face-down with his weight. It was easy to secure the other restraint and he clipped them restraints together so her hands were secured behind her. She had stopped struggling now and BJ pulled her to his knees. "Why you doing this, Des. Let me go." She sounded confused. This was not how I usually behaved. She was feeling sexy and did want to please her husband. She felt terrible at the thought that she wasn't any good at sex and was happy to be taught, but like this. Maybe her husband was right to do this but it felt so wrong, BJ was talking to her. "I've told you that tonight your going to obey me and learn. If you don't obey me it will be worse for you and if you struggle I'll tie you up. It can get worse than this. Do you understand?" Silence. "Do you understand." He said sternly "Des, I'll learn. I want to learn but not like this." Joan was pleading now. "Do you understand." "OK, yes, I understand." "Well tell me. Tell me that you're going to obey me without hesitation tonight." "I'll obey you Des, you know that. Now untie me please." "Well let's see how good you are at obeying. Kiss me." Joan looked up at him, then at his now flaccid cock, which hung obscenely half way out of his trousers. She swallowed, took a breath and lowered her lips to his member. "That's right, kiss me properly until I say stop." She started planting hesitant kisses along his length So there was my wife on her knees with her hands tied behind her and planting kisses on BJ's cock which was now starting to swell before her eyes. I was stunned and wanted to run over and show her it wasn't my cock she was kissing. But something held me back. Of course I realise now that it was Dr Hip's hypnotic instructions which held me back, but it didn't feel that way at the time. I just felt I would make things worse by intervening so I did nothing and except watch as Joan kissed BJ growing member. Joan was slowly relaxing and planting kisses up and down his hardening length. She even looked as if she was starting to enjoy it. Her red lips parting slightly over the heavy mass of his cock. "That's good" BJ praised, "Now take me into your mouth." Joan jerked away but then steadied herself and opened her lips over his swollen bulbous tip. It wasn't easy with her hands behind her back because his cock wasn't fully hard and it flopped one way then the other. Finally she managed to plant her lips squarely over his gland and let an inch inside her mouth. "More" he urged but Joan's mouth looked stretched wide and she pulled away. "I can't. You're too big. I'm sorry." BJ had his hands on her head and for a moment I thought he was going to ram himself forcibly down her throat but he relented. "Stand up, then." He ordered, and Joan stood up rather ungainly because of her tied hands. She looked flushed and her eyes shone, "Oh, Des, I do love you. I'll do anything for you. I'm so hot. Untie me now." But BJ's hands were already at her collar undoing the buttons that ran down the front of her dress. "I'll release you when I'm sure you're going to be completely obedient. But the next thing you need to learn is how to be sexy and turn men on. And this dress is a disaster." Joan stood rigid as BJ finished undoing all the buttons. Her dress gaped open. His cock, now going soft, hung out his trousers - fat and heavy. Was Joan looking at the floor or his cock I wondered? He stroked her cheek in a gesture that was both sensual and threatening. "I'm now going to release you so you can take this dress off. Turn round." Joan's hands where quickly released and he turned her to face him, repeating his order to remove her dress. "What about our visitors?" Joan asked. At which point BJ got angry. "Just get undressed." He snapped, "You leave the thinking to me. Your task is to be sexy and if you can't concentrate on that one small task your learning will have to get painful. Do I make myself clear?" But Joan had seen his anger and already her dress lay in a heap round her feet. "And that." BJ said pointing at her underskirt which swiftly joined her dress on the floor. "And those. I'm not a stocking man." This pointing at her stockings. BJ (and I from the side of the room) watched as she rolled her stockings down and remove her garter. For a moment I imagined BJ as my father, with me banished to the quiet of the corner for some misdemeanour. I yearned to step in and stop it but was to scared. Joan now stood there in bra and pants uncertain what was coming next. She was breathing heavily and her nipples visibly hard through the heavy cotton of the bra. Then, deciding to be proactive she tossed her hair back and put her hands on her hips. "Is this sexy? She asked, trying to please him, but the only response was, "That's better but take off the bra" "Des." She said shocked by instruction. Was she going to challenge him again? No. She hung her head and twisted her arms to undo her bra. Her perfect breasts swung free and bounced gently. Oh, I ached for them. My penis was hard and I had to reposition myself to stop it hurting. Joan was covering her breasts with her hands but BJ wanted her knickers off and by now Joan seemed to be completely compliant and swiftly despatched them the floor. She was now naked and from my position to one side I saw the full glory of her firm generous breasts, delicate waist and round buttocks flaring from her hips. Joan thought BJ was me. She was only doing what he ordered because she thought he was me. This meant that if I had been this demanding and she would have done all this for me. This disturbed me. What a useless man I am, I thought, maybe BJ can teach me how to make her do this. BJ had removed his jacket and pulled the naked Joan into arms and started kissing her. Her breasts pressed against his shirt, his hands on the flare of her waist pulling her against his swollen cock. Soon Joan started responding - kissing him back. His hands were all over the soft pure skin down her back and buttocks. He moved away temporally to let his hardening cock spring up and pressed it against her stomach. It seemed so massive against her flat stomach. He lowered his head to her breasts and she moaned and grabbed at his shoulders. His tongue teased her nipples and Joan jerked as the waves of pleasure swept over her. I was swept away her small orgasm so erotic did is look. For a moment BJ became my father again. Showing me, because I was a failure, how to love a women. ("This is how you do it son. None of 'em can resist if you do it right.") Joan was abandoning herself to the sensations coursing her body. I had never seen her so passionate and abandoned. He had her nipple between his teeth. She gasped aloud and grabbed BJ's cock. Her hand was dwarfed as she tried to hold it but there was no way she could properly clasp his cock with one hand. He was sliding his hand down the flatness of her belly, over her neat bush of hair and Joan parted her legs slightly to assist his access. No, No, I was screaming silently, No don't touch her down there. "Des," she gasped, "Des, what are you doing to me. (pause as she gasped again) Take me upstairs. Please." . Then I heard a car pull up on the drive. BJ heard it too because he quickly moved to a large shopping bag, removed some brand new underwear and told Joan to put them on. I breathed a sigh of relief for her reprieve. Outside the car door slammed shut. The police, I wondered, hopefully. Called by my father? But were they here to stop the proceedings or to formalise them? ("Yes Sir. I understand your wife has broken the law by not looking after her husband's physical needs. We're here to take her down the police station.) Looking threw a gap in the curtains I saw two men go by. Not the police. Joan was putting on a short dress he had given her. Her underwear was now a pair of crimson French Knickers which where so small and loose that you could glimpse the darkness of her hair beneath. The top was no more than a slash of silk which hung from thin shoulder straps low over her breasts. It and was so short if you bent you could have seen the underneath of her breasts. The doorbell went. "Quickly," Joan encouraged BJ. She had finished fastening the tiny skirt. "Give me my jumper." But all BJ took from his bag was a short little starched apron. He slipped it over Joan's head and tied it behind her waist. It reached down as far as the bottom of her skirt but the top barely covered anything. Sure it reached about her breasts, but only just. It just covered the width of her breasts leaving her side exposed to reveal the sexy top and naked belly. "Now kneel and stay there while I see who's at the door." "OK, but if it's our guests make sure you give me plenty of warning so I can put a jumper on." The bell rang for a second time and moments later I heard him answer the door. Joan made herself comfortable on the deep carpet. She felt her breasts and smirked to herself at her aroused state, oblivious to me staring at her silently. She looked at the restraints which were still on her wrists but made no move to remove them. I heard BJ coming back. He was talking and Joan suddenly realised he was bringing the visitors into the room. She quickly scuttled to pick up the discarded evening dress she had started the evening with. She hugged it to herself and as BJ entered with two men she apologised saying something about have fallen asleep and went to leave. But BJ wasn't having anything of it. "I told you to stay where you were. Let me introduce you. This is Paul and Nick and I suggest you get us all a drink." "But I need to change. I'm not dressed." She was still trying to edge past him but he caught her arm and propelled her back into the room taking her evening dress from her as he did. "You see," he said to his visitors, "this is my wife and tonight I'm teaching her how to a good wife. So please excuse her rather casual dress." Then he turned to Joan again, "Now go and get us that drink." All this time he had been holding Joan's wrist. She had been trying to wrestle herself out of his grip without the guests noticing but now gave up and stood docilely until BJ released her to the drink cupboard. She stood mixing four Gin and tonics with her back facing me. She tried to arrange her piny to cover as much flesh as possible. With her tiny skirt hanging off her flared buttocks, her bare feet and thin bare waist she looked like a model out of Playboy. Paul and Nick admired her openly. But they looked away when Joan turned round and I could see she was forcing herself to relax and act normally in front of her guests. She looked so sexy in the maid's piny. Soon after BJ ushered them all into the adjoining dinning room. I gathered there was a salad laid out. I heard BJ telling Joan that her role would be to serve the men - she could eat later. And through the half open door I could see Fred the wolfhound lying under the table and Joan tentatively and attentively walking round serving food. It wasn't a big dinner. More a light snack and soon they returned. BJ was telling Joan to stay with them and not to clear away. "Thanks for serving us," BJ said, "I guess we should let you take off your piny." He reached round and untied the bow. As he lifted it over her head Joan realised how much more exposed she would be. Remember her top was only a few inches lower than her breasts and tight across her fullness. You could see the darkness of her aerole through the thin silk and her hard nipples stood out proudly, demonstrating to the room her unfulfilled arousal. She quickly grabbed the piny to cover herself. "Stop resisting and stand still." BJ ordered "No Des," she pleaded as he prised the piny away and covered her breasts with her hands. Are you disobeying me?" "Des, I can't stay dressed like this. Let me go and put a jumper on" Softly BJ hands went to hold the wrist restraints he had put on Joan earlier. She covered her breasts with her arms. She didn't know what to do and once BJ had a firm grip he suddenly pinned her arms behind her back and in a quick flurry secured her wrists together. When he let her go it dawned on Joan that her hands were secured behind her back. This pushed her breasts more firmly against her silk top. "Des, don't be silly. Let me go" Joan pleaded. "This is for your own good Mary, and if you're not good I'll have to punish you and I don't want to do that. Now come here" But Joan didn't want to go closer to him but when he reached out to pull her she didn't resist but was moaning "No no, Des." "OK, my dear, as you can't stop complaining you clearly need a lesson." Saying this he undid her skirt and let it drop to the floor. Joan twisted to try and stop the dress falling but to no avail. She stood helpless in nothing but fine and revealing underwear, her hands behind her. Then she fell to her knees before him. "Please Des, please. I do want to be a good wife and I know I've got to learn but please don't do this in front of our guests, I'll die of shame. Please." "You still feeling sexy?" She ignored his question. "Let me go Des, let me go." She pleaded as she knelt before him. "Kiss me" "What" She sounded alarmed. BJ had a hand on her head and now pulled on her hair until she was looking up at him. "Kiss me. Kiss my cock quickly before I get annoyed." Joan glanced at Paul and Nick as if convincing herself they were only illusions. Forcing them out of her mind and so thus make it acceptable for her to what she did. Which was to lean forward and press her lips to the front of his trousers. "That's it. Properly now - until I tell you to stop." He grinned at Paul and Nick who were clearly amazed at the sight as Joan pressed her kisses home. Joan was loosing herself again. She was letting herself go. BJ flexed his knees and pressed her face against his hardness which pushed against the confines of his trousers. BJ dropped down so they were face to face. "You see, you can be sexy if you try." Joan smirked at the compliment - half pleased half embarrassed. Then she gasped as his fingers found the smooth surface of silk covering her breasts and pinched her nipples. Kneeling as she was with her hands secured behind her she had no option but to let the sensations BJ was creating wash over her. And when his fingers slipped down and lifted the red silk up over her breasts all she could do was moan softly, "Oh Jesus, Des, oh, no more, please." Des paused and waved Paul over. "Let's get another opinion." He said, "Now kiss Paul." And he moved away so Paul could stand where he had - his groin thrust towards her. "No Des, don't make me do that." She said with alarm but BJ had positioned himself behind her and pushed her head forward. She twisted her head away to avoid Paul's groin which was when BJ pulled her silk top completely over her head leaving her swollen breasts nakedly available and the top dangling at her wrists. BJ cupped one breast in his hand while the other pushed her head forward again. "I told you things would get worse if you disobeyed me. Now kiss him" This time Joan did although she seemed distracted by BJ's hand cupping her breasts and caressing her nipple. She continued planting kisses on his groin for a while until BJ decided she wasn't being passionate enough and pulled her to where Nick was sitting and pushed her face down between his open legs. Nick splayed his legs and used his hands to move Joan's lips to where he wanted. Quickly BJ decided he wasn't happy with this arrangement. He couldn't reach her breasts and was telling Joan to show more passion. Paul had removed his trousers and lay on the floor with his Y-fronts bulging like a tent. BJ pulled Joan by her elbows behind her back and positioned her over Paul's tent. BJ lifted her tied arms forcing her face down onto his bulge. "Do your stuff" he ordered. Paul teased one swollen breast while BJ had one hand round her other breast and one hand roaming her buttocks smacking her lightly at times. Joan was moaning, "No, no more." But she was no longer resisting and was planting kisses to her own design. Paul slipped his pants down over his now stiff erection and Joan's moaned again, "Oh no, Jesus." And then, without Paul's hand forcing her head down she started kissing his raw meat. I don't think Joan felt BJ slid the French Knickers off her buttocks but she jerked when his thumb found her clit. He pulled the knickers completely off and waved Nick over. He quickly stripped and knelt behind her, his erection pointing at her virgina. Joan's rear twisted wildly when he first pressed himself against her opening but he held her round her waist and pushed himself inside her. Joan gave a muffled moan her mouth full of Paul's cock. Having satisfied himself that Joan's was being fucked both ends he picked up a camera and took some photo's. He removed his clothes apart from his vest and then looked for something to do while he waited for Nick and Paul to take their pleasure. He seemed to notice me and came over telling me to kneel on the floor. This was the most humiliating bit for me. He made me suck him. His cock. Me. "Come on," he said, "as your wife can't suck me you'll have to do it for her." He held my head firmly so I stared at his muscular torso and froze as his cock pressed against my chin. I could smell him; see the line of hair running down to his groin; and out of the bottom of my eye I could see his bulbous head staring at me as if saying, "Your gonna suck me boy." It was as if it had the power to take over my mind. BJ pushed my head down and I remembered what I had seen Joan do. Maybe I should do the same, I thought. I looked at his meat square on. I was shaking. I kissed him alone his length timidly as if it might bite. I had never seen a cock so close before, not even my own. The veins standing out, the soft hairs towards the base and over his tight balls giving way to the heavier pubic hair, the smell, the heat, and the overwhelming heaviness of it's bulk. BJ wanted more. He always wanted more. He wanted his cock inside my mouth and having gone to far to think of resisting I let him push himself past my lips. God he was big. I understood what Joan meant. And then he was fucking my mouth. He could only get some of his length in but he was fucking my mouth - sliding himself in and out. A couple of times I gagged as he forced himself to the back of my throat - and further. A few feet away Paul groaned as he ejaculated into Joan's mouth. Suddenly release as BJ complained I was as useless as Joan, and pulled out leaving my jaw aching. "Ok, my turn guys" he announced and helped Joan stand up. He told Paul to take me upstairs and picking Joan up bodily into his arms we all trooped upstairs. Even Fred, padding softly behind us. BJ dumped Joan on the bed in what turned out to be the guest room and untied her hands. "Now let's see if you've learnt anything. Make love with me." Joan's brown eyes looked up at him then down to his cock as he joined her on the bed. Her eyes flicked to Paul and Nick (never to me) as BJ's hands explored her body. He was telling her what to do and soon they were going at it hammer and tongs. She had both hands round his cock and was kissing him all over. His large hands where caressing her breasts her buttocks, pulling and caressing as whim took him. When he fingered her clit she arched her body to him something she had never done with me. When he finally slipped his cock between her legs she opened them wide and grabbed fistfuls of bedclothes as he pushed. "Oh, my God. She gasped, moaning and nearly screaming as he pushed himself home. He fucked her for hours, or at least it seemed like that. When he came he was fucking her from behind doggy style. He was holding he hips and pounding hard into her while she buried her face in the duvet, her rear up in the air affording him easy access. He groaned and pounded away even harder before collapsing over her. He rested like that for a while then pulled himself out saying he was off to bed but Joan should pleasure Paul and Nick until they too where spent. Nick wanted to fuck her arse but I didn't witness that because BJ led me outside into the corridor and told me to go and sleep on the sofa downstairs. I went downstairs and I think I fell asleep because I woke suddenly. . I heard a car start and realised Paul and Nick had just left. I walked round the room shaking the sleep from my head and thinking. Now the evening was over I knew I had to do something. I had to get Joan away. I had to make her safe again. I also nearly overwhelmed by a wave of anger that came over me. I felt as if I had been blackmailed - forced to watch the evening events because intervening would have made things worse somehow. But now, if I could get Joan out of the house maybe I could at least rescue some pride. Or maybe I just wanted revenge. I tiptoed upstairs and saw Joan asleep in the spare bedroom. The door was left ajar and I watched her for a few minutes wondering what would become of us after this night. I closed the door and gently opened a few doors until I found the master bedroom with BJ snoring away, a bottle of whisky by his bed. I shut the door and went downstairs. I nearly jumped when Fred pushed his nose against me. I hadn't heard him approach but he followed me downstairs where I locked him in the garage with some steak from the fridge. Then I got a knife from the kitchen and proceeded to completely trash each room. One by one, methodically. Calmly as if in a trace but my mind was whirling. I was careful not to mess up the entrance hall but I slashed the chair covers. I threw sugar and flour from the kitchen all over the carpets and sofas. I poured milk over his record collection; his five or six brands of whisky over the carpet; and when I found some bleach and paint stripper in a cupboard I opened them over his furniture. In his writing desk I found ?1000, a lot of money in those days, which I pocketed. Upstairs, with the need to be quiet paramount I limited myself to emptying a bottle of port and the remains of some red wine into the linen cupboard. Until, that is, I found a small box room converted into a photographer's dark room. There were drawers full of photo's and negatives which I poured chemicals over. I had no idea what the chemicals were or did but took some to pour over the carpets. I remembered the photo's BJ's had taken and stole his camera and film. Finally I wrote BJ a very polite note which I pinned to the wall right outside his bedroom where he couldn't miss it. "I have the photo's and I remember everything. If you talk to anyone I'll come back and kill you. If I don't get promoted next week I'll come back for you. If I see or hear you've contacted my wife ever again I'll come back for." I wanted to hurt him. I wanted to go into his bedroom and really hurt him. But I didn't trust myself and it scared me. I woke Joan up. "Get dressed we're leaving." She dressed without a word and a few minutes later I was hailing a cab. Thank God there's always taxis in London. The next day Joan went to her mother's leaving me a brief note. "Gone to mummy back soon." It was three-days before she returned. Three dark days of fear and worry. I returned home from work to find her cooking the evening meal and breathed a sigh of relief as I inquired after her mother's health. Joan and I have never spoken about that night although I know we both often think about it. I want to tell her that it wasn't me who did those things to her, but what would that do? Maybe Joan would feel more humiliated by the thought that it was someone else. And what would she think of me if she knew I had sucked BJ's cock? No, some things are best left alone. I can tell you that Joan and I are still together. Children have been and gone and we're going to be grandparents later this year. And sex? Well here I've no complaints. Since that evening I've seen another side to Joan. In bed she's been sexy and willing, and she still is, all these years later. She still won't suck me off but I'm not completely sure it's a complaint. As I think I've already said my penis is on the small side of average and Joan will kiss me, wank me and even swallow my come, but if I ask her to suck me it always the same answer. "I'm sorry darling," she'll say, "But you know you're just too big. When you get all hard my small mouth can't take you. Would like me to do you by hand, I'd like that." To which I usually lie back and say, "That would be nice darling".