I arrived early, finding an old yet very well maintained farm house back off the main road. It wasn't that I did not trust her to keep the consequences she'd promised within reason - I just wasn't quite *that* sure and so decided it was better to be safer than sorrier. The house itself was situated in a large, private wooded lot that was once probably the center of a working farm. That much free land (that is, undeveloped land) is unusual this close to Washington DC, but I suspected the proximity of the local D.C. prison had a great deal to do with why there weren't fifteen tiny planned communities crammed into this area. My watch beeped, and I stepped up to the door. There was no bell, only an old fashioned door knocker that clunked noisily when I released it. The door opened to reveal Martine, dressed much as she had been the day before, only wearing well worn work boots in place of the running shoes. "Turn around" she ordered preemptively, "and put your hands together in the small of your back." Once I had done so, I felt her slip something over each wrist that quickly tightened to comfortable snugness. A gentle tug assured me that any use of my hands was lost to me until she freed them. Something slipped over my head and covered my eyes, effectively blinding me. I felt her breath against my ear and then she began talking to me in a breathy, just above a whisper voice that sent thrilling shivers up and down my sweating spine. "I do hope you remember how many steps up onto my porch, boy, because we are going to play a little game. I am going to take you on a tour of my place. You will follow the sound of my voice. If you get lost, I will have to come find you, and I won't like that. Just follow the sound of my voice, Jimmy-boy, and everything will be fine." And it was, although walking blindfolded over unfamiliar terrain without your hands to catch you if you fall is a just a bit scary. In my darkness, time itself lost meaning as my entire focus became her voice. Finally, we entered into a building (at least, I thought it was a building since the sun was shaded and the floor was wooden.) The air was redolent with familiar scents my boyhood - hay, animal and manure. She took me by the arm now and led me up to some type of post, whereupon she freed my hands only to rebind them in front of me, but around the post to some type of hook above my head. The blindfold went next, but the room was so dark that I still could not see. A single, harsh overhead light blazed on. And she stood there, in front of me holding something that looked like a black fraternity paddle in her hand still dressed in her drab work clothes. "That went very well. You trusted me to keep you safe and just followed where I led." Her hand came up to stroke a lock of hair out of my eyes and she saw me giving her the once over. "Disappointed, boy? Leather and latex are expensive and uncomfortable in this heat. I only wear them as a reward for slave boys who have been especially good boys. Perhaps, if you do as well in the rest of my little drama, we might have something here." I don't remember much of that first session except bits and pieces out of time, like a mosaic that you stood too close to see the whole picture. I remember . . . . The paddling starting over my jeans, and then progressing - first pulling down the jeans, and finally the shorts to get to bare skin. Being surprised that one side of the paddle was fur covered, and nearly coming out my skin when she stroked that against my scrotum. Her petting and touching me over and over again, and talking to me - words that reminded me she was there with me, but that did not seem to say anything. Little bites and pinches, that never seemed to hurt, but rather, simply seemed to wake up the nerve endings. Crumpling bonelessly to the floor at her feet when she finally freed me and how wonderful the icy cold dipper of water she fed me tasted. I don't know how long we had been in there - in that old barn that stood in a little clearing behind the main house - or how long I simply laid there at her feet, out of touch with the world. Later, once I had come back to myself, she invited me in for a light lunch. It was then that she asked me if I wanted to try more. My look of disbelief made her laugh. "Not *right* now, silly. I meant, do you want to try more serious training? Understand, that today was very gentle and I am *not* always gentle." "Could I?" I breathed? "You would have to become my slave, James. I would require you to serve only me and those I put over you. No more seeking out others to dominate you unless you first come to me and either get permission, or renounce me." "I'd never do . ." She cut me off with a wave of her hand. "Don't make promises you cannot keep, James. The heart is unpredictable. You may fall in love and want to give yourself to her. I already told you that I do not make love with my slaves, and I infer from your letter that you are a virgin. That is how you will remain for a long time to come if you give yourself into my keeping." Swallowing hard, because I had a secret I could not share with her, I answered. "Would you please accept me as your slave?" She studied me for what seemed like hours, and then nodded. "Yes, I will. The next time you come here, James, we will begin your training in earnest. In the meantime, you will study my web site, again. I want you to make a list of what things on the list excite you, things that frighten you, but most especially, those things you do not think you could do for me. Be ready to present them and discuss them with me next week." She stood and led me to the door, where she took me into her arms and hugged me tightly. Pleased to find out that I had been right, I hugged her back. Definitely cuddly. I was almost out the door when something caught in my mind. "Martine. . errr. . ma'am? How do I address you?" I asked uncertainly. "Mistress will do, James, until and unless I decide you have earned more." I drove away, marveling at what I had just committed myself to doing. Of course, it wasn't as if I had all that much choice. Unlike Martine, I knew what the secret was. Somehow, sometime today, I had fallen in love with her, and I could no more renounce that than I could fly. She was the one I wanted to whom submit myself, and if that meant going to my grave a virgin, so be it. My training began that next weekend as promised, and it was a rare week that I did not spend at least one evening in her barn-dungeon. The few times I missed a week were the result of school work that had to be finished. Mistress was adamant that school came first, and on two occasions literally banished me from her sight until a paper or project was finished to *her* satisfaction. I learned to get ahead at school and stay ahead. I was given a safe word and "trained" to use it. She found out I was ticklish and drove me mad until I safeworded, my heart pounding and my breath coming in panting, rasping heaves. I was feeling ashamed for using it under such a test, until her next words told me she had intended for me to break this day. "Remember this, slaveboy." She ordered sternly. "Remember that you can and did use the word and that you were NOT punished or ridiculed for using it. That code is for both your protection and my protection. I expect you to use it *if* and *when* you feel you need it." She had been truthful when she'd told me she wasn't always gentle. I learned firsthand about her hard side the first night of mid semester break when she had introduced me to her strap and her dressage whip. That scene had me close to safewording when the intensity seemed to cut back a little, just enough that I could handle it. When it was over, *she'd* been the one crying, but she'd been smiling through her tears when she did it. I got very thoroughly hugged that time, and later, after I had recovered, I was further rewarded for my courage under trial. Mistress had a girl slave treat me to my first oral loving. I had been so "blown" away by that, I did not even balk when the slavegirl had kissed me afterwards, sharing my semen with me. Later, when I thought what my father would have said about *that*, I still felt too good to worry about the *manliness* of having given myself a "blowjob by proxy". However, not everything went that well. Once, she brought in another male slave, Allan, to participate in one of her sessions with me. That one turned into my first "failure" to please her. To make a long story short, Mistress wanted me to perform fellatio on Alan, and that time, I *did* balk. All I could think of as Mistress maneuvered Alan's erection ever closer my restrained face, was my Father sneering at me, laughing at me for my lack of manhood that I would even contemplate doing such a thing. And at the command of a *woman*. I safeworded at the top of my lungs, all the while straining and crying to get free, to get away from Allan and his erect cock. Alan took it badly, and broke down emotionally at my rejection of him. Mistress ordered the sobbing Alan to go wait for her in another room and then moved behind me to attend to my restraints. After freeing me, she tonelessly ordered me to dress and leave for the night. "I am deeply disappointed." she said quietly as she watched me clothe myself. The vivid pain in her voice all but unmanned me. "Mistress, I . . I . ." I stuttered, unable to get out any words of sense or reason. "I am disappointed in us both, James." she said softly with a sad shake of her head. "In you, because I had believed you were more open than your performance tonight. And in myself for not seeing that and then subjecting someone like poor Alan, whose only failing in this was to trust me, to the kind of pain he is going through now. I have to take care of him. I will call you in the morning." Nodding at her reprimand, I turned to leave. "James?" her voice stopped me. "Go home and get some sleep. It will be all right." The disappointment and the hurt in her voice, I thought as I walked shakily to my car. I had caused that - I had *hurt* her that way. My stupid macho pride born of a father who had long ago rejected me and whose bigoted teachings I'd thought I had long ago abandoned. I had even met Alan before this evening, had known he was also a slave of Mistress. He was a great guy, and my stupidity had devastated him. I was not going to do anything like that ever again. Oddly, nothing more was said about that incident other than Mistress telling me she had added that to my list of limits. I should have told her then that I had reconsidered, and that she did not need to do that, but I didn't. I am ashamed of that, just as I no ashamed that I was glad that she took any decision, and by extension, any responsibility, out of my hands. Other things changed after that, too - subtly to be sure, but noticeably none the less. It was like Mistress was walking on eggshells around me, handling me with kid gloves. She still "worked" me over, but scenes seemed to stop sooner now. Fewer strokes of the cane, just a bit less stringency in the bondage tie ups or one less twist of the clamp screw. Frankly, I was getting worried. Was she getting tired of me? Was she thinking about releasing me and was therefore letting me down easily? Such was the state of my mind on what was to become both the worst and the best night of my entire life. I had been cleaning up her kitchen for her in lieu of our regular weekly scene before going home. She'd not been feeling well and had decided to go to bed after asking me (the asking part really scared me) to straighten up for her. I was just about to turn off the light and go home when I was grabbed from behind about the neck. I caught a glimpse of something metallic glinting out of the corner of my eye just before something sharp stung me right beneath my chin. "Don't say a word, little man. Don't even *breathe loud." a harsh voice with fetid breath rasped in my ear. "And you just might live to see another sunrise." Suddenly, I was lifted off the floor and carried by my neck to the corner of the kitchen, my feet dangling nearly a foot off the floor. I was slammed head first into the corner and then was spun about to face my assailant. Two things immediately got my attention - both the man and the knife he was holding against my throat were *huge*. He had to be a foot taller than I was and nearly twice my weight. And all of it looked to be muscle. A bare stubble of hair covered his chalk white scalp. "You thinkin' of doing anything stupid, boy?" he whispered harshly, as the tip of the knife cut into my throat. Afraid to move, I choked out an almost soundless "No." "That is real good. Real smart, too." He seemed to relax a bit then, and began to study me as I studied him. It was then that I saw the marking on his shirt. "Lorton" it said. He saw the recognition in my eyes. "Yeah, boy, I am a con. Just so you know, I think I killed me a guard escaping, so it don't make me no never mind if I have to kill you, too. Understand?" "ye . .yes sir." I stammered. "Sir." he said softly, a sadistic grin lighting his hard features. "I like that." Then something caught his eye and the knife moved to point at my throat. "What's this?" I felt the knife graze against leather and remembered that I was still wearing my collar. He moved closer, his breath fetid and rank. "Property of M" he read aloud. "Who's M?" Now I was really frightened - not for me, but for Mistress Martine asleep upstairs. "My. . .my Master - his name is Martin." Saying the furthest thing from the truth I could think of. "Master, huh? Where is he?" "Home. . .he went home earlier and I was cleaning up before going to bed." I said letting my very rea fear for Mistress show in my voice to aid my deception. "Well, that is just too bad for you, isn't it? Or maybe it isn't. Well trained little slut like you just might be good enough not to get hurt." The knife moved back to my bare throat, and slid a line of stinging fire across my windpipe. "Into the living room, slutboy." he growled, shoving me ahead of him. In the living room, he immediately pounced upon the handcuffs that I had not yet put away. "Just what we need." he said, jerking my arms roughly behind me and locking the cuffs so tightly about my wrists that I quickly lost feeling in my fingers. An ominous >ziippp< sounded behind me just before I was thrown crashing loudly to the floor, landing hard. I'd barely had time to hope Mistress had not heard that noise when a huge hand twined in my hair and jerked me bodily to my knees, where I found myself face to face with his groin. "So you play with boys, slut? Well, unless you want to get cut real bad, punk, you are gonna make me feel real good." His penis was large, and getting larger. The knife point prodded me to get on with it, and I felt a wet heat trickle down my neck. A great calm came over me at that moment. I knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I would not survive the night. And having accepted that, all I could do was try to buy time. For what, I did not know, but each second he was occupied with me was a second he was not prowling about the house. With a silent prayer for her safety, I closed my eyes, and opened my mouth. His body reeked. I almost lost my dinner at the first taste of his urine-rank skin. Fortunately, all my convulsive swallowing did was excite him further. Recalling my experience with the female slave, I tried to mimic what she had done to me on this man. Grimly, I began to tease him, trying to excite but not satisfy. In the back of my mind, I hoped that he might drop the knife and try to use both hands to fuck my mouth. What I would have done in that case was never very clear in my head, but at least he would be unarmed. I changed my point of attack several times, trying to stretch out things out as long as possible, slipping from his penis to his balls and back again. I put the reality of what was happening, of what I was doing, out of my mind as I instead focused on Mistress. Every lick, every taste was for her, and in a very real sense, was a way of making love to her. A new salty flavor began to permeate my mouth. The grip on my hair tightened and I felt him moan. "You are pretty good, slut boy, but I got places to go and people to do." he panted raspily. "Now quit your fucking around and suck my cock, bitch!" Time was running out. My mind was going a thousand miles a minute as I tried to figure out something - anything that I could do. But what? With both hands free I was no match for this monster, but somehow I had to find someway to protect Martine. But WHAT?!?! Then, it was taken out of my hands. I had just shifted my mouth back to his scrotum when an amplified voice blared. "Police! The house is surrounded. There is no way to escape. Come out with your hands up!" I felt him tense and the knife start to move back towards my unprotected neck. I was going to die and this animal would be alone in the house with Martine. I did the only think I could think of - I took both balls into my mouth and bit down as hard as I could - trying to make marzipan out of them with my molars. His scream of pain was deafening, and I felt two hands now trying to rip my hair out by the roots, but I held on, grinding my teeth back and forth across the rubbery nodules. A hot, coppery flavored fluid spurted my mouth as a loud crashing of glass and wood joined in the cacophony of his screaming. Gentle hands gripped my arms to try and pull me off him. I looked up to see a shotgun leveled at his head. I released my jaws and was pleased to see him fold into the fetal position his bloody groin dripping onto the hardwood floor. Two officers helped me to my feet in time for a satin dressed tornado to bowl me over back onto the floor. An angel asking me "Are you all right?" was the last thing I heard as I slipped into a dead faint. ~---------~ Much later, after the police had finally left and the paramedics had proclaimed me all right except for a couple of superficial nicks and cuts, the house was again quiet. Martine had me, bandaged up and bundled up, on her big leather sofa, a cup of herbal tea steaming in my hands. As I had learned from her statement, she had heard the crash when the escapee had thrown me to the floor. Upon creeping to the hallway, she had seen me being orally raped at knifepoint and had called 911. The cops had immediately recognized her description as the escaped convict and had dispatched a SWAT team. "You did that to protect me, didn't you?" she said softly, her eyes shining with surpressed tears. "That is the only explanation. I remember how your reacted to Alan. I don't think you would done that just to protect yourself." I wasn't so sure of that. Living had been very high on my list of priorities, but she had been, too. "I love you, Mistress." I answered simply. "And I would do anything to protect you." "Even that, eh?" "There are no limits when it comes to your life and safety, Martine." I used her name intentionally, using it to emphasize how much I meant those words. She nodded slowly, understanding in her lovely amber eyes. "And I love you, man of my heart." then she stood, offering me her hand. When I took it, she pulled me to my feet and began leading me toward the stairs. Her lovely smile lit her face with secret promise. "Come to bed with me, James. A Lady is entitled to reward her knight-champion . . .properly." A dazed thrill shot through me. She had told me that she *never* slept with her slave boys. Did this mean we had gone beyond that? My mouth went cotton dry and I licked my lips to moisten them. The sweet promise of love was snuffed out and was replaced by cold prickling terror as I tasted the residual blood still clinging to my lips. I stopped dead, all but shouting. "No Mistress. . .we. . .we can't." Confusion and then sadness dimmed the light in her eyes and I caught on that she thought I was rejecting her. "NO!" I said. "We can't make love yet, as much as I would give my life to share that joy with you. That animal and I . . .we shared bodily fluids. He. . he might have been carrying . . . carrying. ." My voice cracked in fear and disappointment. "Are you worrying he might have AIDS, James?" she asked understandingly, and I nodded. "All right. We will wait and inquire tomorrow, after you have rested and the prison doctor is available. We will make sure before we consummate our love that way. However you *will* join me in my bed so I can hold you and watch over you all through the night." And so she did. ~------------~ Murphy was evidently on vacation that night. The escaped prisoner had not been HIV positive at the time of his escape. Six months later, both he and I remained HIV negative, so I finally felt safe about accepting the new role Mistress Martine had decided I would fulfill in her life. Part of that role has taught me a whole new meaning for that powerful word, *boy*. As in *whipping* boy. You see, Mistress Martine. . ., excuse me, I am now honored to refer to her as "My Lady", is herself being dommed - by her Doctor. It seems that Doctor Domme thinks that My Lady really needs to lose some weight. She is still a Beautiful Woman, but the good doctor says she cannot be quite so big a Woman in the near future. While that is great for her good health and well being, it does have several negative aspects to it. Guess who gets to "help" her remember not to eat the things she *really* wants and likes? Or who gets to "help" her take her mind off being hungry by providing her with some alternative activity to keep her mind (and good right arm) occupied? Got it in one try, didn't you? (Yeeeoouch! *THANK* you, My Lady. May I please have another?) Of course, I have also have learned a new meaning for the word "man". My Lady loves me as I love her, and at her command and to my deep pride, I now wear her ring in addition to her collar. I am *her* man, and something even more than that. These changes stem, at least in part, from the reason behind My Lady's mysterious visit to Doctor Domme's office. She wanted a baby . . . my baby. What was it Jesse Jackson said? Any animal can impregnate a female, but it takes a *real* man to be a dad? The magnitude of that responsibility scares me half to death, but when she isn't *too* hungry (either for food or for play), My Lady assures me that *she* has every confidence in me and knows that I will do just fine. Oh, and another thing - a man repays his debts. Alan and I have since scened together with My Lady, and I satisfied both her and him that time. It wasn't all that bad - kind of warm and nice, actually. Alan and I are now the best of friends in addition to being lovers for our mutual Owner's pleasure. He even stood up for me as Man of Honor at the wedding ceremony when my brothers, having heard something of my relationship with Martine, declined. What's that? Oh, the Man of Honor thing? That was My Lady's idea - she told me that there was only one *Best Man* at our wedding, and she was marrying him. A good submissive knows better than to argue with his beloved Domme.